1. |
a letter
04:40
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every night i sit awake and think of you besides me and it makes me really sad that that's the only thing i ddream
everynight i see you and it makes me want to kill myself i think about your body and it makes me want to leave
another empty picture frame sitting inches from my brain it haunts when i go to bed it haunts me when i'm waking up
the things you did can't be undone the things i said can't be unsung i only hope you meant it when you said that i should go
i wish i could have moved on but i can't
you left me with these scars and so i chant
you hurt me every time i go to sleep
i don't wanna see you in my dreams
so every day you think of me just think of what you did to me i'm never gonna love again i'll never be the same
sleepness nights i think of you the only nights i get to do those things that make you part of me those things that make me hurt
you promised me you'd never do those things you call me up to promises you can't reverse those things you kept beneath the earth
every night its new again and every night it's old again it's only ever been like this it's only ever been like this
so when you leave don't tell me where you'll go
it sounds like shit but i don't wanna know
you hurt me everytime i go to sleep
i don't wanna see you in my dreams
16 nights i'm over you and 16 more im under you you're never gonna let me go you'll never let me be
so now i write this song for you and hope that it's well understood you're never gonna see me now you're never gonna see me then
so please don't try to talk to me and i'll never try to talk to you i'm never gonna be your friend you'll never hear from me again
it's makes me sad that this is so but you left me with so little choice i'm sorry for the things i said and i'm hope you meant the things you meant
so when i leave just promise you won't go
you had your chance now it's too late to show
i loved you then but now it's not the same
i don't think it's ever gonna change
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2. |
stop thinking
02:37
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i wanna kill my brain
take it out of my head flush it down the drain
cus i don't wanna think another awful thing
take a look in the mirror i dont recognize me
i wanna kill my head
flush it down the drain down till im dead
cus i don't wanna see anybody when i touch the screen
you know what i mean
i wanna kill myself
wait no i didnt mean that
i guess i did
this is what i mean everytime i try to speak
i say these awful things that i never really mean
it sucks to be me
it sucks to be you
no one in this world's got it figured out
so you might as well sit there and run your little mouth
i hate thinking about anything
i just wanna sit around and do these awful things
but i dont wanna think about the consequences of my actions
i wanna hurt myself
i wanna hurt myself
i wanna hurt myself
i wanna hurt myself
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3. |
strung out
02:52
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so here i am again
worn and strung out thin
wishing i could feel whats right
i wanna be like them
see their smiling friends
wishing i could be by their side
but im not
and ill never be
and then youll see
what do you to mee
so here i go again
make another friend
another monster in disguise
another tragedy
is all i seem to get
the twisted fruits of my desire
its all my fault
this is all i do
and now i try
to do it unto you
so here i am again
worn and strung out thin
wishing i could feel alive
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4. |
please dont go
02:52
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this fucking sucks
i really fuckin hate you
i really fuckin do
i really hope you do
cus i fuckin suck
i'm really fuckin hateful
you shouldnt trust
a single thing i do
cus i'm not like who
you thought i wouldve been
and i'm not the dude
you wanted to be with
so please don't cry
when i tell you goodbye
just know i tried
and i'm never gonna make it all right
im such a mess
i really hate the person
i tried to make
out of you
and i guess you're right
i always was the problem
everything thats wrong
because of me
so please don't try
to find me after all
there's no one left
for you to try to call
i've given you
my identity
all those parts
i thought made up me
now are you
so please leave me alone
i don't want to see my face
everytime i look at yours
i dont know who i am
i dont know who you are
i guess that's all i am
we're better off apart
so please don't follow
me when i try to go
i'll never look for you
you'll never know
please dont go
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5. |
fuck off
03:10
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i want you dead
i want you gone
i want to get you out of my head but i cannot
those things you said
those things i want
i tried to keep you out of my life and here we are
so still i try
to make it right
i know it won't work
but i'm not gonna stop until it hurts
you're such a bitch
i'm such a cunt
we're meant to be and it's a shame you fucking suck
i tried to be
a better one
this is all we need and we can make it if you want
you tell me that's it's wrong
we'll never be one
i know it's not right
but i won't let you see through all my lies
but i still want to see you every night
and i cant stand to see you by my side
i know i want
i know i've got
so now i lie awake and think of all i've done
i try to win you back i know it can't be won
i made my grave and now i think it's time i rest
this is the only way that it would ever end
i guess you were right
and now we say good night
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6. |
let me go
02:33
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i watched another movie today
and i thought about what i should say
both
left me feeling numb
im so sorry
i guess its okay
im sorry
that you have to relate
please please please please listen when i say
you were the one that i wanted be
And i was who you wanted to see
i guess i was always gonna leave
it was wrong of me to lead you on
and it was wrong
to try and wrestle your heart
im sorry it had to come to this
and i wish i could write about something else
but your brain and your thoughts have invaded my self
this is all i'll ever be
so please
let me go
leave me apart
and i think
you oughta go
you better leave
before it starts
because love
is a place
and i believe
it's too late
so please
let me go
leave me apart
and i think
you oughta go
you better leave
before it starts
because love
is a place
and i believe
it's too late
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7. |
mary anne
01:22
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maryanne
will you let me into your heart
mary anne
will you let me take you apart
mary anne
turn all your thoughts into art
mary anne
you left it all at the start
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catwoods Seattle, Washington
my name is bea! i write songs and feel bad about it online
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